My life in a nutshell

So, anyone who knows me or who has been following my blog knows that this last five months have been anything but normal. I went from having a husband and a home to loosing my husband and trying to sell my home.If somone would have told me a year ago that next year I would be a widow I would have said no way, but on the same note if somone told me that not only would I be a widow but I would be ok too I would have said no way to that too. My life has made a complete 360 but all for the good. I can look in the mirror and like who I see again I just got a new calling in church- I am going to be working with the young womens and I can't wait. I went to the temple and now instead of saying Dan has been gone for 5 months I say 7 months till we are an eternal family.
Here is what I have learned from all of this be who you are and if you don't like what you see when you look in the mirror change it- cause you can. It is hard but you can and happiness will follow. Don't wait till someone is gone to realize how much you love them and don't take love for granted weather it be your spouse your sister, friend or parents. It is sad to think that it took a tradgedy for me to realize just how lucky I was to have Dan. I knew I loved him I just didn't know how much and I am sure that he feels exactly the same way. I have the best family 2 loving sisters and three great brothers and two wonderfull parents to thank for everything. I also realize I need to communicate with my brothers and sisters more call them cause I would hate to be sitting in my parents house again one day like we all were on October 5th(Jackie and Jay here in spirit) thinking I wish I could have said this or I wish I didnt push them away.
Your family is going to be there for you no matter what and into eternity so you better learn to apprieciate and get along with them now.Also if someone is trying to call you maybe there is a reason maybe they are trying to reach out so answer your phone or call them back. We can all be a support system for eachother cause I have a feeling it is only going to get worse.
Finally statistics: every 16 minutes someone in the United States commites suicide it is estimated that every minute an attempt is made. Suicide is a bigger epidemic than cancer and aids yet no one wants to talk about it why? Every year there is a walk in honor and to help prevent suicide it is during suicide prevention month which is in September which is the month of Dan's birthday I will be walking in it this year and anyone else who would like to help me honor Dan's name is invited to join us. Dan didn't do this to punish me he loved me so much he wanted to give me the world and when he felt he was failing he did the unthinkable. He is with me everyday and I love him now more than ever before. If you feel you need to talk to somone or you need help there is always help available but do your research I didn't and I regret it every day there are good doctors out there that can help you and then there are doctors that dont care. If you need someone to talk to here are some numbers: 1800237TALK or 1800suicide there are power in numbers together we can get through anything. Dan, I love you and can't wait to see you again, altough i will probably step on your feet as I give you a hug!!

P.S- Dan's headstone is done and will be set in the next few weeks I will let you know when. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers.