Memorial Day

Well, not a whole lot has been going on lately just work and a lot of home repairs. But for memorial day we did get away for the weekend and it was soo nice. I have met someone very special... his name is Mark. We get along great and the girls like him alot. I didn't think that I would find someone like him so soon, but I guess sometimes people come into your life at a certain time for a reason and I truly belive this when it comes to Mark.
Well, I do get to go to girls camp in 2 weeks and I am sooo excited. Jackie will be here next week to and that is always fun to see her and her crew of kids, the girls just love their cousins!!! Well, untill next post.. hope all finds you all well.

Going Home

Well life continues on..... I have recently moved back into my house and am settling back into every day life. I have changed everything so I am able to come home and feel like it is "my new house". The best part of all: after 9 years we are finally going to have a back yard. The girls are almost done with school and they are doing really good. I will post pictures of the backyard and the house in a couple of days. Shelby and Shaylee are smiling again and that is so good to see heaven only knows those two little girls have been through enough. Now it is figuring out a routine and how life will be from here- just taking it one day at a time.

Quick Update and Thanks

Just a quick update. Dan's headstone after a very long wait has finally been set so if anyone would like to go see it. He is buried at Washington Heights cemetary in South Ogden. I would just like to say thank you to everyone who has been and continues to be such a huge support in our lives. My family and friends I could not have gotten through any of this without the support from you all you have no idea how the text msgs and the phone calls and people just stopping in or inviting us over has meant to us. I just hope one day I can repay the support We love you all and are sooooo gratefull to have such a huge support system.

Disneyland Baby!!!!

Ok so we just got home from Disneyland and let me tell you what I LOVE that place! It truly is the place that no matter how old you are you still feel like a little kid. We had so much fun we did the Midievil Times dinner show and the girls just loved that. Because it is the year of celebrate you they have a cool new parade and a really good firework show.We also got to see my Uncle Birt and Aunt Sue and that was nice.Well it was fun, but now I am glad that spring break is over and it's back to school for the kids for 1 more month.

This is Spring?

Well, my sister was here with all of her kids and with her came good weather. Now that she is gone back to Arizona I find it really funny that the good weather left with her. But, that is ok cause tomorrow we leave for Disneyland!!! Yea!!! We also get to do the Midevil times dinner show,so exciting. Well, will post after the trip all the good pictures and news on how it went.

Power in Numbers

So I am a firm believer in power in numbers in spreading the word and having faith combine to help people. So I am asking for a favor.... I have a very dear friend who is in the adoption process and so anyone who knows of anyone who is looking into adopting I have the perfect couple for you. There names are Jimi and Sarah Jarman and the links for their information is: http://jimiandsarahadopt.blogspot.com/. If you have any questions this link will sum up anything you would need to know or you can post questions for me and I can point you in the right direction. Thank you so much!!!!

My life in a nutshell

So, anyone who knows me or who has been following my blog knows that this last five months have been anything but normal. I went from having a husband and a home to loosing my husband and trying to sell my home.If somone would have told me a year ago that next year I would be a widow I would have said no way, but on the same note if somone told me that not only would I be a widow but I would be ok too I would have said no way to that too. My life has made a complete 360 but all for the good. I can look in the mirror and like who I see again I just got a new calling in church- I am going to be working with the young womens and I can't wait. I went to the temple and now instead of saying Dan has been gone for 5 months I say 7 months till we are an eternal family.
Here is what I have learned from all of this be who you are and if you don't like what you see when you look in the mirror change it- cause you can. It is hard but you can and happiness will follow. Don't wait till someone is gone to realize how much you love them and don't take love for granted weather it be your spouse your sister, friend or parents. It is sad to think that it took a tradgedy for me to realize just how lucky I was to have Dan. I knew I loved him I just didn't know how much and I am sure that he feels exactly the same way. I have the best family 2 loving sisters and three great brothers and two wonderfull parents to thank for everything. I also realize I need to communicate with my brothers and sisters more call them cause I would hate to be sitting in my parents house again one day like we all were on October 5th(Jackie and Jay here in spirit) thinking I wish I could have said this or I wish I didnt push them away.
Your family is going to be there for you no matter what and into eternity so you better learn to apprieciate and get along with them now.Also if someone is trying to call you maybe there is a reason maybe they are trying to reach out so answer your phone or call them back. We can all be a support system for eachother cause I have a feeling it is only going to get worse.
Finally statistics: every 16 minutes someone in the United States commites suicide it is estimated that every minute an attempt is made. Suicide is a bigger epidemic than cancer and aids yet no one wants to talk about it why? Every year there is a walk in honor and to help prevent suicide it is during suicide prevention month which is in September which is the month of Dan's birthday I will be walking in it this year and anyone else who would like to help me honor Dan's name is invited to join us. Dan didn't do this to punish me he loved me so much he wanted to give me the world and when he felt he was failing he did the unthinkable. He is with me everyday and I love him now more than ever before. If you feel you need to talk to somone or you need help there is always help available but do your research I didn't and I regret it every day there are good doctors out there that can help you and then there are doctors that dont care. If you need someone to talk to here are some numbers: 1800237TALK or 1800suicide there are power in numbers together we can get through anything. Dan, I love you and can't wait to see you again, altough i will probably step on your feet as I give you a hug!!

P.S- Dan's headstone is done and will be set in the next few weeks I will let you know when. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers.